I’ve got this dull annoying headache, probably from not eating soon enough or eating crap, that puts me into this being sick of my life and I can’t do anything about it place. It’s always best if I sleep when it comes on, but when I can’t sleep, because I have a rehearsal or something, it sucks. Like suction cups. I don’t really like anything and everything that comes through my senses is tepid oatmeal. I try searching the refridgerator to eat it away, but again, everything’s oatmeal. It’s times like these that I am tempted to find some kind of thrill distraction to get myself out of this funk. Tonight I won’t, though. Sleep, Eddie, sleep.
I still have to take a shower and I am stalling because I feel like I’d like to not move and be brain dead. Stupid body too tight from not stretching enough lately. Stupid social skills that disappear when it’d be nicest to have them. Stupid apartment that smells when I have the windows closed but it’s not my fault and I can’t find where it’s coming from and I think it’s from my downstairs neighbor so I open the windows as soon as the weather permits and I am cold right now. Stupid eyes that ache. And Stupid left eye that gets smaller when I get tired. Stupid car cell phone charger that I bought at a mall kiosk. Stupid knee that still hurts from when I slammed it into a railing a week and a half ago. Stupid, stupid, stupid shower. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Don’t even say it….