Doctor’s office

.
Abandonment is a dark bottle
with your pills ready dissolved.
The payment made with your thumb and pointer
flick the cap with your lighter.
A million voices around the corner
catch your attention
say, “Do dare, don’t you dare.”
Mom in the video, mom in my head.
.
Ghost of girlfriend passengers
appear on the Alaska postcard.
Axes and ombré ponytails.
Sand in the rental and in other places,
soak brake fluid on the concrete floor.
“Make none of this accidental.”
Only a hitchhiker could appreciate that,
make a song to pay for food from it.
Where a tree can travel on her breeze,
she only sucks in while we wait.
.
We move while we wait.
We pace like a tiger in a cage
in a traveling circus.
We fly like the universe, out first.
Then back with a BANG!
But that’s all theoretical.
“We’ll see, we’ll see.
Give me a week or three”
.
Ok, ok, ok.
What else can I say besides,
I’ve lost my privileges.

I am a Filipino.

I’ve been missing my dad a lot lately. I need to call him. Here in NYC I’ve had some really good Fil-Am (Filipino-American) food and it’s made me homesick. Also, being on either side of the Pacific in Australia and then LA and flying over Hawaii doesn’t help. I even had some Poke in LA that was wonderful! I feel that side of me calling. I need to go back soon.

Here’s a great essay I says partially printed in the restaurant I ate in yesterday. It is powerful and my heart connects. I am a Filipino.

 

No pools

No pools
Pissing in baths
Five poemserso late
Dead skin peels
Skinny stomach
All for
Semantics
Hide wrinkled
Placeholdtreadbeat

Where the dove
Where the figs
False messenger
Born out
Mirage saltwater imp
Man O War boquet
Of bolas
Turn ankles of
Ancestor self

Lost sunrise
Sky’s let me down
In alien world
Sprout from
Dent shins
Thin soil
Ink blot tattoo
From fossil chrysalis
Not clouds
Scars on eyes

Garden water dark moon
Ice lost to sun
Lost to gravity
Endless volley between
Heaven not heaven not
Placeholdtreadbeat
Till lukewarm universe